*this page should be uploaded by 31th December 2008*

to u
there has been month since the happening..
had heard from u time to time
doesnt matter i am ur gf, i m hoping everything is going well with u
enjoy ur life

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to sweetheart
first of all,
i really have to thank you for everything
i doubt i could pass it through so easily without you

and
i had great times with u in these few days
maybe thing is going on too soon
but
i feel that i do not want to miss it out
i dont know what is gonna happen next
but since i have came to this stage
i just feel like wanna enjoy every moment with u if possible

by the way,
ya,i came with a lot of stories..
sth u may not expected
it may too tough for u to accept that
i could expect it

and still the words
if chance given to me once again
i would do the same thing
maybe that is not right to most people
but at that moment
i do care the person i love

just for the person i'm loving only
when i love, i mean it truly deeply madly
i could only love 1 person at 1 time
i dont know i love u or not
just because i really not expert in that
i used to be saying 'i dont know'
but with what i have done, i wondering..
do u think i love u?
can u feel it, sweetheart?


btw
there is sth i wanna tell u
i really have feel on u
this i am sure about
since i had him,i nvr have feel on others
until u appear
u really attract me
so much
i have missed u

and also because of this
i do not know how to handle my relationship
and even, i have tried to run  away from my feeling
i could not accept that
i get attracted by u
i feel guilty to him
and so much things happen at the same time
i could hardly afford it

i am sorry cause saying 'i dont know' when u asked me..
i need time
until i am fully prepared myself for u

after all
sweetheart
i really care u so much

*hug hug*